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| wow i havent written in so long.. where to begin..
i feel a little guilty, i seem to be in an abusive relationship with
xanga lol, only using it to let out my anger or dissapointment or
feelings of the such.. i never think of writing in it when im happy or
excited, rather only when im so upset that i have no one to tell it to
but xanga :\..
here i am a junior in college... havent even finished the first
semester and i find out that i only have 10 classes left to graduate..
i guess those intense course loads and summer classes add up right? 2
majors, 2 concentrations + 2 minors, and im running out of classes to
take.. the original plan was to graduate early, but to do what? i had
totally dismissed the idea of graduating early but then stretching 10
classes over 3 semesters is a little ridiculous... my parents
graciously pay my tuition so im not gunna waste their money.. ill still
have my internship in the busch student ctr so ill still be at school,
just not in it.. i could just look at it as still being in school, just
finishing my classes by december, to do a hardcore job search till i
walk in may.. but i dont knowwwww...
i like my internship.. i do like being a graphic designer... i like my
job, makeup artistry is fun and everything... it's just a weird feeling
though.. this semester with 20.5 credits, my design internship, and my
part time job.. i still feel so bored.. and just apathetic towards
everything.. in regards to graduating i am so ready to start my
real life, yet am still yearning to learn so much more...
i feel like i have so many decisions to make like right now.. grad
school, my career.. exactly what that career may be, thats a good
question.. who knew when in second grade i borrowed my first book from
the library about egyptian archaeology and would say that id become an
archaeologist who did art on the side.. that it would actually come
true.. here i am ready to graduate with degrees in graphic design,
photography, and anthropology ( and minors in art history + historical
preservation), and i have no idea exactly how to get the most use out
of them.. and of course no desi girl can even begin to think about her
future after college without weighing in the marriage factor..
no guy's exactly fallen in love with me yet (i wish it was the same
vice-versa :\) so yeah im feeling a little hopeless.. ive been 20 years
old for almost 2 months, and while i know this is like my prime, i feel
like everythings just winding down and wrapping up.. i find myself
alone most of the time, keeping busy btwn classes, work, or the
internship.. and just thinking.. about everything and nothing.. ive
just never been so anti social in my life..
i guess the cliques at school kind of seem to disgust me, how they show
off to the world at how much fun they have 24/7 and it kinda just makes
me wanna throw up so screw them lol.. i mean in the age of facebook i
feel more like ppl collect me as friends rather than actually be my
friend.. but i mean who cares about the quantity right, even if i have
243524545 friends i barely know, it's the quality of the few who i
cherish right? but even my close friends, it
seems like everyones like just so busy doing their own things.. hah so
im just left home listening to frankie j + old indian songs lol.. maybe
its just been a case of middle child syndrome these past few months, i
do get that time to time.. its just weird for me like im the oldest
daughter still in the house, yet at the same time i constantly feel
outdone by my prettier skinnier, more popular little sister... but
thats a whole other entryyyyy...
my own image is also a whole other entry.. from me taking down
mirrors to barely getting dressed in the mornings... all i need is my
favorite gap sweatshirt + my converses and im good to go :)
i just feel like im missing out on something.. having a special
someone? just doing something that i really love? just some
spontaneity in my life? i havent been to california in 3 months
so maybe i just need to get over there? (yeah its really just something
else over there) but i think even my older sister's too busy for me
over there so i probably wont even go for winterbreak ..
maybe i should just get a job in los angeles.. and make a life for
myself there.. i dont know why stupid sephora corporate headquarters
had to be in san fran.. if only it was in los angeles then id be all
set.. my family did want to go to pakistan this winter, but plans
changed.. so either we'll go this summer or next winter.. yeah i havent
been there in 9 years so whenever i do go, i need to stay for a while..
for a while i thought about just taking a semester off from school to
do an independent study photography project/ anthropology thesis
there.. but my parents werent exactly thrilled with the idea... but if
we do go next winter, and since i will be done with classes.. maybe ill
just stay behind? pakistan is where my roots are so there may lie my
future as well?
but the red lights start blinking and emergency sirens go off, as a
21yr old college graduate girl really cant be left in pakistan lol
without coming back home to america with a husband and 3 kids...
ideally id go to pakistan, do humanitarian work helping the poor and
homeless, take photos of the country, of the ppl, and a small pakistani
newspaper would employ me, and then jump on me for my graphic design/
layout + copy editing skills and use me as a valuable asset to their
newspaper :) and of course id find a guy doing some type of study
abroad from the states or europe who came to pakistan to find his roots
and is working for united nations or something.. and while im in this
dream state, i might as well think about how im
still dying to get the summer internship with national geographic
photography in dc.. and why not get even further away from reality.. id
love to be a designer or photographer while doing anthropology grad
school in california, or move to minneapolis to design for my old job
target ;) or move to paris to work for magnum photos or to turkeyyyyyy
cuz its so beautiful there.. bah, i just feel like i have so much more
self-improvement to do before any place, for any profession is gunna
take me seriously.. :\
i just need to get my act together.. i need to get motivated,
maybe get a new internship.. some business cards for free lance graphic
design, photography + makeup artistry.. start running a mile every day,
stop eating carbs.. lose a bazillion pounds.. bahhh and just start
liking myself again... i just feel like im in such an awkward place in
my life.. i mean thank god im not a teenager any more and have gotten
the hell out of highschool.. its just that thank god i have so
much and it looks like its all really coming together.. but from the
inside im just such a mess... and im just worried about my future's
sake because im not a teenager confused about life.. im gunna be
graduating college in like a year and i should like know what to do..
the thought of all my coworkers at sephora who work there full time
makes me shudder.. some have graduated college and some havent,
but 3 ppl there actually have degrees in graphic design.. obviously the
ppl who really wanna make it in life in any profession do, but i feel a
little hopeless cuz im not sure just yet exactly what it is that i have
to offer to the world.. like whats the thing in me that makes me
different than the other 572 million bazillion ppl in the world? hah i
guess right now im just dying for someone to recognize something
special in me.. and i dont mean like for someone to love me, but even
like profession wise for me to work at a really phat graphic design
place or become a nice photojournalist.. (haha currently im just a fat graphic
designer).. just for me to be good at somethingggg and passionately do
that.. i just feel like a little bit of a complete failure in life
because i always did something different, never settling for the
traditional or expected.. and now having taken that path throughout
college, i just dont feel happy or even satisfied.. while my
friends are getting ready to take lsats and doing pharmacy
rotations.. im here in my converses in art school.. i just feel
like such a waste of lifeeeeee...
well this was just a weird entry, because while i feel like ive been typing forever and have said everything, i too feel that my words have accomplished nothing...
so here it ends...
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| well well well, it certainly has been a while since i've last written.. well may 7th was my last day of exams.. and from that day on, i had so so so much family over, it was great. my aunt nd uncle from london, my uncle and cousin from vancouver, my uncle's whole family from pakistan.. and there's an added twist.. i wake up saturday morning the 8th, it's 630, and theres a baby in bed.. lol it was my niece sumaiya.. my sister and her husband had come from california for a week, as a mother's day surprise for my mom.. and my dad was in on the whole thing lol.. my sister actually didn't even know till friday morning when my bro-in law tells her that their plane is leaving at 8 that nite.. he had taken off for her from work and everything and it was both a mother's day surprise for her and my mom.. it was great  .. what sucked though was that since i didn't know before, i had work to go to at both sephora and at bioarrays in warren.. haha in the week that my sis and bro in law were here, we ate chuck e chicken's 4 times.. lol as you can tell we all love that place... i don't care what anybody says, that place is awesome.. what also kinda sucked is that i had like a fever 4 days in a row, off and on.. like crazy temperatures like 103's nd stuff.. and it's weird cuz i never get sick..but that week was sooo much fun..and since then or actually wait even that week, i've been working every day since the 7th.. that's 35 hours at bioarrays in warren, and 30-35 at sephora.. well i quit bioarrays on friday, since my summer classes just started yday.. this summer's just constantly busy busy busy.. along with yday being my first day of summer classes, it was the first time in 27 days that i didn't have to go to work..:whew: thank goodness.. tuesday wed thurs this week im all bummy.. just chillen nd doin the school thing.. well last thursday me nd madeeha went to soofia's.. sunday ash madeeha nd i hit up dunkin donuts, after hours lol.. monday they both came over for a late dinner at like 9:30.. then yday being my first day w/out work, madeeha nd i went to the mall to find her bro a bday present.. nd now today all 3 of us are off to see the day after tomorrow nd hit up the mall for some hardcore summer shopper, and figure out our outfits for hittin up the city on saturday, madeeha's bday get soopt lol. i feel bad for not havin updated in so long, but a new internet craze has consumed me: naseeb lol.. it's basically friendster, but more of a hardcore hook up service.. it's aiite.. i basically made an account so i could talk to one person who's already on there.. more to come soon, as all will be revealed in time  | | |
| :yawns: so it’s 1:02 and I’m sittin on my bed with my lappy J (laptop) just finished watchin it.. lol you may wonder what “it” refers to, but I mean It, the movie by steven king.. that was the scariest movie I remember from my childhood.. and last week, when purchasing the ever after dvd from target ( on sale for $7.50, holler!), I stumbled upon It.. which is nuts cuz blockbuster doesn’t carry it, nor does Hollywood video, or netflix… so of course just by finding it I was gunna buy it no matter how much it cost, but wat’s crazier is that it only cost $9.44, regular price! And not only is it just a dvd, it’s double sided.. so that’s 187 minutes of quality movie there buddy!
Eh, well the point of this entry isn’t to talk about It lol.. also, I’ve realized that while before I used to write cuz I just wanted ppl to read my entries, as if strangers really give 2 shits as to what I do every day lol, that it’s really important that I write for my own sake, just to get erything out ya know.. cuz wow I totally don’t believe in actual hardcopy diaries cuz whoa been there done that and no good comes from those :-X… well I’m obviously not doin anything too crazy now if I’m putting it up on the net for eryone to see, but cmon now.. my site doesn’t exactly get a thousand hits a day or anything.. or even 10 for that matter lol.. but if anyone cares to read, awesome… knock urself out buddy..
Life has definitely been just straight up crazy lately… it’s just like erything at once.. school, school work (let’s see there’s my crazy photo projects for which I put 10 hours outside of class time in the darkroom, the billions of drafts we’ve been doin for the 10 pg expos 2 paper, never ending anthro readings, sculptures for artmaking and might as well throw in contemporary art but im actually used to the work load for that class by now), work (as in jobs, aka target, sephora, & bioarray solutions), and some other social/friend/relationships stuff..
Well let’s just start out with the jobs stuff.. got hired at this place in warren.. I still don’t know exactly what it is, but they have laboratories, offices, cubicles, and they like develop stuff.. and well the vice president of the company is an intellectual property lawyer, and I’m his legal assistant.. all though fillin out all the legal shit is a pain in the ass, I guess I like doin the office assistant crap, and I don’t mind being paid $2.25 more an hour than I used to get paid at target.. and a super bonus is that I have a bldg pass so I’m allowed to come in whenever I want to do stuff.. I basically get assignments and work to do, so I just come in and do them whenever I want.. and, I’m allowed to work as little or much as I want to.. so that’s awesome.. so that I go to Monday Wednesday Friday mornings, get in by 8 and stay till it’s time for me to be off to class.. I guess if I really enjoyed the job I’d be in there Tuesdays and Thursdays in my free time.. cuz im basically free from the afternoon-on those days.. but let’s be serious.. my type of ppl don’t really wanna be stuck in a cubicle, having like totally minor human interaction.. lol getting dressed up for an office and u know having my own cubicle n stuff is awesome.. but the money motivates me, not the job.. but I guess if I wanted to be a lawyer er suttyn then I’d enjoy it.. ah well.. on the weekends, and some Tuesday and Friday nights I’ll be working at Sephora in bridgewater mall.. apparently nobody’s ever heard of the place, but if you have be sure to holler with some props lol.. it’s this awesome beauty store and we wear all black, and the ppl who work there are sooo pretty and nice (I’m so jealous).. and I get paid more than target so it’s coo.. but wow as corny as this sounds, I already miss target so much.. today was my last day L.. and it’s like I was there for 1 yr 8months.. and it was my first job.. and I seriously got madd love for erybody who works there (and unless you worked at target with me, you might get bored outta your mind reading this section, so feel free to skip ahead to the next section).. we all just get along so well.. I don’t even consider them just to be my team members ( lol coworkers), they’re really friends… I say I work with my friends, not that like oh some girl at work or whatever.. nd as dumb as I may sound cuz it’s my first job and that I’ve just been there so long, erybody, whether they been there for a month, or it’s like their gazillionth job, says that they feel suttyn madd special too.. and if they weren’t giving me no hours, understaffing, overworking, and underpaying, I’d prolly be there till forever.. work was full of hugs, reminiscing of old times, kristin even came to visit on her day off J, elsa gave me a gift (this awesome purse), and I won’t forget what curtis said.. that he was so sad to see me leave cuz I was one of the nicest person he’s ever met in his life.. :awws:.. I felt so special.. my manager Diana started crying when I was saying bye L.. kwame gave me his number (HOLLERR) hehe.. damn that place is so awesome.. 16 ppl in my cell alone are numbers from work.. some I’ve only used a few times, while other I use rather often even just for txts.. the experiences I’ve had at target, the good, the bad, the ugly.. the nights we didn’t leave till past 1am, the guys we always chased after, all the target drama.. (boy oh boy there’s just too much of that), the awesome 75% clearance lol.. I met some awesome ppl at target.. so leaving target feels very much like leaving a school and like transferring into another like mid-year.. I mean there’s the friends u make that I got madd tight with (school friends), the adults that are madd chill to be around (like some teachers), how we goofed off when we shoulda been doin work (like classes and school work).. when ya think about it.. if all of us stuck with the shit at target for so long, it’s obvious that we got eachother through it and we all tight as hell to have done so.. :tears:.. well tierra sam Karen rich salman I’ll bump into at Rutgers.. but so many ppl imma miss cuz the only thing I have time for is school & work.. sometimes I don’t even have time for one or the other but I force it somehow.. bah.. imma still be at target often.. def. gunna show for the yearly bbq.. thaz not till like july though.. me elsa & Karen goin out to dinner Tuesday nite so that should be fun.. bah, as I’ve already proved that I can go on and on about target FOREVER.. so let’s move on…
Hmm so wat I find so funny is that something, that I’ve wanted for 3 years now, I finally get… and the strangest feeling.. is that once u got it, u just don’t want it.. its not even like the u always want wat u can’t have type thing, It’s like this thing was just so important to me.. reaching this goal was the only thing that I had to look fwd to.. it got me through some rough ass times.. I wanted it at first just because I thought after attaining it that I’d be livin happily ever after.. then I wanted it just so that I could reject it to basically torture the other party involved.. and now.. I’ve just moved so past it all.. like I don’t even know what to do.. I’m past the point in my life where this thing would make me happy or even rejecting it would make me happy.. cuz I really want nothing to do with the other party involved and just wish them the best of luck in life.. so bah.. what a mess :-/
You know what I realized.. how much I hate paki ppl.. like wow they all just talk so much freakin shit.. like it’s so weird.. ery paki person I meet, they’ve talked madd shit about a friend of mine, or a friend of mine has talked madd shit about them! It’s ridiculous… and let’s not even get me started about PSA… that is such bull shit.. like I really thought it could be cool and organized and it could really work.. but like the elections for next year.. :PSHAW:.. kids be running for the wrong reasons.. just for the sake of claiming the title.. and its like.. what do they have to offer? The hope (not promise) that they could just make psa more fun.. like really in those terms, just that vague.. ive been the president of the largest club in my middleschool in 8th grade, and then the vice president of national art honors society last year.. and wow I put so much hardwork into both.. it’s no easy shit I promise.. and the thing is that it’s like if one feels so passionate about suttyn ya should run against the bs-ers right? Well I really am not in the position to offer much of my time for psa.. and I did wanna run for secretary or public relations person.. but like I don’t know what I’d do on a board with that much testosterone… with the ppl having gained their office through influence of “their boys”.. basically having all your boys show up the day of election.. that’s great.. when it comes down to it u should only run if you honestly have sincere motives and feel like you could significantly contribute to the Pakistani student’s association..
What would happen if like starting tomorrow, the rule of the world would be that eryone has to wear a badge on their shirt that answers “qu’est-ce que tu voudrais de la vie?”.. lol idk why I typed that in French, but I asked myself that question in my head in French, so figured that’s how I would write it in here also.. but it’s like what do you want from life? If everyone just plain out let you know.. one could easily recognize and thus avoid the losers who respond with “I wanna party and chill with my boys forever”, and they’d be separated from the guys who wanna be successful, married and true to their faith (lol that’s THE guy I’m looking for)..
So the guy.. that I really thought I had found.. boy oh boy.. I thought he was so perfect.. we are soo compatible it’s nuts but wow it’s just some shitty ass luck that I got I guess.. nothing just ever works out for me does it.. smart, good looking, good-hearted with a strong faith ( you realize how I avoid the term holy) and artsy… I never realized this but I’ve liked 3 guys possessing those afore mentioned characteristics.. and I guess I just really dig artsy muslim guys lol.. I guess it’s like not even about 2 of them havin gone to art school.. it’s not about an art major.. it’s like artist is more than just something you choose.. it’s like u function differently.. you think differently… you set your own limits.. bah.. I just don’t understand why I’m the one who’s so deeply longing to find myself in someone.. like why I’m trying to make this connection .. while others are just so content without it.. and I don’t mean like just finding some joe schmoe to date and pass your time with or something.. I guess im one of those hopeless who’s looking for the real thing.. and on a side note, I had an epiphany.. it occurred to me.. that like in regards to ppl dating and watnot.. I sincerely believe that nobody is worth anybody’s time.. that is like my quote from this day forth.. I mean duh there are ppl who are worth your time.. but those people won’t be wastin it.. they’re gunna be straight up, straight forward, and will just bring on the rishta (proposal) LOL…
But I just don’t understand why im like so dumbfounded having found someone who I think is just like so perfect.. like did I come to college to be an individual, or find acceptance in a group? Sometimes it’s both.. like if I’m yearning to be this shining individual, then aren’t I doing so with hope that everyone (or someone for that matter) will notice.. and then what? Like I love doing my own thing yet at the same time I want somebody who’s doing it too?
Like idk I just hate the fact that at times I feel like I’m limited by my friends..like I feel bound by them in that even when I hate certain aspects about some of my friends, by me not just being that ideal renegade individual that I would so like to be I end up just basically pickin up their same traits, and just goin along with wat they do.... like I’m all about doin ur own thing and going where you want.. but at the same time when nobody wansta go with me (lol when I wanna go off to do my own thing) im like aiite nevermind I wont go.. and then I just like sit there dreaming of some knight in shining armor who’s gunna have the same aspirations as me and we can go do our own thing and not care wat other ppl think or who does or doesn’t approve... lol so I basically need to find someone just like me so that I can pursue my aspirations of being an individual? Wow that is so messed up let me just drop it..
I guess growing up in a mostly traditional paki household inclines me to be afraid of doing these crazy things and pursuing my crazy dreams.. never being able to shake the thought of knowing how many ppl will dissaprove.. I guess I have some not so traditional ambitions and im just dying for someone to approve.. and I guess id love for that person to be my guy.. :sigh:
I wonder if guys go through that.. like having to get parents approval and conforming to others standards and expectations.. like idk, I feel like boys in college must be so happy.. knowing that they’re just starting the rest of their lives.. while I, a girl on the other hand, feel like it’s time for me to wrap things up.. like these are the final years of the end.. like I mean what do girls have to look fwd to? A happy marriage? Like living in a culture where women aren’t encouraged to pursue a career they feel passionate about (other than pharmacy, medicine, computers or law), I feel like nothing is supposed to make us want to succeed in life than the thought of being able to have this ideal household of being an awesome wife and mother.. thus when I wanna do national geographic field archaeology school in Arizona for one freakin week of my life that I’d be paying for, I’m not even allowed to.. it’s like why should anyone give a fuck as to what great opportunities I’m potentially missing out on, since it’s only the guys responsibility to be makin the big bucks… and while internships and specialized programs serve well as to ensure one with job security and making big bucks, what if it only fulfills a deeply rooted special interest I have.. and it’s suttyn special to me.. it just drives me super nuts that for guys (atleast in my culture) it’s acceptable that they go on week long vacations with their friends and if it’s going away for school or work or some program then it’s totally great for them.. while if a girl goes away for school or work or god forbid a trip with her friends :-O, then it’s like oh shit she’s Americanized and who does she think she is tryin to be some modern woman blah blah blah..
What drives me even more nuts is that ppl just assume that guys will turn out religious no matter what while any little thing will make a girl go astray.. like why earlier in this entry did I use the term strong-faith in a characteristic my ideal guy would have, instead of religious or holy? Becuz so many guys are fuckin bull shiters.. not only will they talk madd shit bout other ppl no matter how minor their offence may be, but those same guys talking about you behind your back are the ones pullin all this messed up shit, keeping it on the dL.. like they’re all acts.. and like who’s to judge who’s religious and who’s holy.. like nobody has any fuckin right to pass judgement on anybody else.. but if you can honestly tell me that you got a strong faith and you know your shit, and right from wrong, then thaz coo.. unfortunately, I’ve learned from experience that the guys talking the most shit bout other ppl are the ones doin fucked up shit on their own.. so whatever…
I can’t believe I took up 4 freakin pages in word.. so let me end this.. I’m doin sephora tomorra 11-7 so imma put this up b4 I go to work.. if anyone read even any of this, I’m so sorry that this was so long.. I’ve pretty much accepted the fact that there isn’t some handsome stranger in the corner dying to learn about me through what I write lol, so I just basically ramble on and on in this shit so that I can get my own thoughts straight.. well if you’re reading this line, thanks for your time.. take good care y’all
And I wont be updating at nite cuz I’ve gotta finish my graphic design application.. but soon.. promise | | |
| so who knew that it would be almost 4 months before i updated my xanga  ... certainly not i.. man im the girl who used to make multiple entries a day.. and now it's come to this.. lol.. sorry i haven't been reading anyones, commenting, or writing.. as i've been a bit busy for this xanga business since winter break.. well i went to los angeles for one month from december- january, and finally met the most amazing little potatoe, the cutest, precious baby ever... the love of my life, my niece  Sumaiya Akbar, who was born december 10th .. i have got to say, that i truly had an awesome trip in cali.. since i've been back however, this semester has been crazyyy hectic..
so let's fast fwd to now.. well spring break was actually hella fun.. although i was initially bummed about being home, as i hadn't been home on a spring break in a long ass time..just chillen ery day was fun.. the snow, however.. bit monkeys.. and totally made me want to rewind back to spring break last year, when i went to puerto rico  ..
so anyways, spring break totally flew by, and before i knew it, it was monday.. the first day back to classes.. of course my ass procrastinated, and waited till then to start my research paper which was due on tuesday.. stayed up till 7:30am tuesday morning to finish, and totally got late for my 8:10... went through classes as usual, went home to sleep for 2 hours, and then back to RU for the isru lecture.. which was really interesting and alotta fun.. wednesday, i was in the dark room from 8:30am-2:30pm, went to class 2:50-5:50, and then back to the dark room 8pm-midnite to develop my photos for class on thursday.. thursday did the classes, went to a job interview, did a paper, and yet another class.. home by 10pm, and hella tired... friday morning class was cancelled.. and madeeha aisha and i were going to NY.. but actually ended up not getting farther than jc.. and we had a crazyyyy ass time.. oh man i haven't laughed that hard in forever!.. that took up my whole morning/afternoon.. and then did target at 6:30, home by 11:30...
saturday went to another job interview (yay i got it  ) and it was the 2nd day in a row that my plans to go to NY fell through.. because i missed the damn train.. and the train after that.. it was cool though, cuz now instead of going alone, i'm just gunna go with shafa & soofia on friday.. and since i had already called out of work, i got to chill at home and help my mom with stuff since her cousin's family was coming over later that nite.. i must say that little Zain is like the cutest 3yr old ever..  they left like past midnite, and then sunday morning did target from 11-6... where i wuz totally soopt to find out that (tomorrow) on tuesday, my interview at sephora in bridgewater mall.. is gunna be done by the store manager michelle, who just so happens to be the daughter of my coworker mary ann @ target.. and that i've already been given the job  ..
so within the next month, i'll be quitting target, and doing my legal assistant job in warren on the weekdays, and working at sephora tuesday nites and weekends.. aw man, i'm sooo looking fwd to the all black dress code.. cuz target's red & khaki is so not cute! so today was my first real day of work in warren.. where i'm an intellectual property lawyer's legal assistant.. doesn't that sound hot lol.. went there 8-10:30 today and omg it's such an awesome job.. the ppl are totally cool.. and ya gotta love the fact that i can come in whenever i want any day of the week, from 7-7.. and @ $10/hour, i think i'll be coming in quite a bit .. actually at the most probably like 12 hours a week, like basically around my classes.. and it's so much fun dressing up all businessy hehe.. well class was from 11:30-12:50, and since then, i have done nothing..its like 2:30 right now and i really shoot have been shooting some pictures or working on my sculpture cuz boy do i suck with clay..
but yeah i must be off to pursue my artistic endeavours.. artmaking's from 2:50-5:50, gunna hit kilmer after that, and then the photo lab to develop the pictures i will have hopefull taken by then.. writing in here was fun, and i really must do it again soon.. take good care xangerz, miss me! | | |
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